I’m 10 years old and I’m naughty
The lights are dimmed, candles are lit, smooth jazz 98.1 radio station playing in the background.
I’ve got my sexy underwear on and a cute bra that makes my boobs look… well… like I have boobs.
When I was 10, I used to do something I knew I wasn’t supposed to.
It was our little secret.
I loved feeling naughty.
We’d make sure all my furniture was moved in front of my door, just in case my mom tried to walk in.
OH MY! If she ever caught us…
As I’m thinking of my 10 year old pussy getting naked with another 10 year old pussy it makes my adult pussy clench up… interesting.
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I used to love going to the pool with my friends when I was younger.
I’m probably 12 at this point… I remember my friend’s Dad got stern with me because I kept taking some dudes sunglasses and hiding them in the girls locker room.
Apparently, I was acting inappropriately with that older gentleman. I was told to leave him alone.
I left the pool that day with my head looking down at the sidewalk and an ickiness in my gut.
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I’m 14 years old and I’m getting wasted in my house with my friends - my mom’s tequila.
She’ll nevvvvvver know.
My mom was going to be home any minute. In the last minutes of everyone packing up, I decided to change my outfit into something more comfortable.
There I was, in front of everyone wearing my tiny black Calvin Klein thong.
“Eww, put your clothes on, you’re acting like a slut.”
I didn’t really feel like a slut… but I put my clothes back on, sheepishly and as quick as possible.
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I’m 11 years old and I had just made a new chat name to talk to people on the internet.
I was so proud of this name.
What a spark of creative 11 year old genius.
@transexualluv69
I mean c’mon, you gotta give me props for that one.
The chat name lasted all of a few days before my mom read my computer one day. You know there’s something suspicious going on when you have 11 year old girls hovering around a computer giggling.
“Balls, french kisses, anal sex!!”
(giggles uncontrollably)
“Girls, go home! As for you, you’re grounded. No more computer privileges.”
I hope one day @transexualluv69 will be redeemed.
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Slut. Inappropriate. Naughty. Bad influence.
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What’s the first thing you think of when you think of desire?
I’d be surprised if you didn’t think of sexual desire first and foremost.
Before working with womxn in my Mindf*ck to Mindsturgasm groups, I was a men’s coach. It was the perfect segway from sex work -- I still got to support men with their issues, but I just didn’t need their dick in my mouth to do it.
A lot of men would come to me with their sexual desires and how to “get rid of them”.
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I lost my virginity when I was 14.
I was one of the first girls in my girl group who lost her virginity. I was so scared to talk about it with anyone else but the only other girl who also lost her virginity.
We would have these secret meetings and talk about how our boyfriends went down on us and how painful sex was at first.
I remember feeling so scared to share with her how often he would go down on me… I didn’t want it to seem like I actually enjoyed it.
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We have a sacred slut within all of us. Doesn’t matter what gender you are - she’s our sacred feminine, the part of us that isn’t ashamed of her pleasure.
She’s ready to open her legs and be worshiped.
Her sexual energy is not gross, it’s not slutty. It’s pure.
It’s her true essence.
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Why is it that we think of sexual desire as something to get rid of?
So what happens? The desire gets repressed, squashed down. Repressing the desire so much it starts exploding all over you, blowing it’s load and getting it all over your clothes. It just keeps spraying all over you.
All your clothes are stained. You can’t wash it out. Dammit.
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Like one of my clients, going to Sex Addicts Anonymous meetings, reading the 12 steps out loud to the rest of the group, then going home to masturbate to porn for hours.
Why? Because reading the book doesn’t get you off nearly as much as the porn does.
I suggested he take time every morning to masturbate with his porn addiction… without watching porn. He would masturbate with his DESIRE for watching porn, giving himself the ability to pleasure his desire to the fullest.
Trying to get rid of sexual desire isn’t the end game, acceptance of all that wants to move through you is.
Allow the desire to move through you.
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Desire is so much deeper than just sexual desire. Desire is innate in our human condition, we are born to desire… otherwise we wouldn’t be alive. There would be nothing we would be striving for.
Desire is one of the most primal parts of our humanness.
Desire to explore, adventure, and experience all that life has to offer.
Desire to be better, do better.
Why do you think you want more from life? Because the feminine desires more.
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Do you know the true power you hold when you accept your desires? When you allow them to move through you rather than have them fight against you?
It’s time to reclaim this part of ourselves. The darkness, the shadows, the desires society has told us shouldn’t be desired.
The spiritual community that says it’s unspiritual, the religion that says it’s unholy to think these thoughts.
Accepting them doesn’t mean acting upon them either. Most of the time just the simple act of accepting them is all that is needed to feel fuller and more joyful in all of your essence.
All your essence. Desire is part of that essence.